Day 22 The 7 story mountain

 Happy Sunday!  Thomas finally gets baptized and has first communion.  There is so much in these 25 pages that I could just concentrate on this section for the rest of Lent.  Thomas became a mystic, particularly in his later years and you can see this even in his first book.  Interesting, the seven story mountain that the title refers to that Thomas starts to climb occurs after his baptism.  He felt he needed to atone for his 23 years of sins and said he did not realize how steep and arduous the climb would be.  The section I would like to concentrate on today is his thoughts on receiving the Eucharist:

For now I had entered into the everlasting movement of that gravitation which is the very life and spirit of God: God's own gravitation towards the depths of His own infinite nature, His goodness without end.  And God, that center Who is everywhere, and whose circumference is nowhere, finding me, through incorporation with Christ, incorporated into this immense and tremendous gravitational movement which is love, which is the Holy Spirit, loved me.

And He called out to me from His own immense depths. pg 225

My first thought was, "How very Zen!" Now Thomas didn't feel all that during his first communion. These are his thoughts about it later.  I certainly don't feel that every time I receive the Eucharist but that is what is happening, for I have Christ physically inside me and God is calling out to me from his own immense depths to let go and stop fighting the gravitational movement towards Himself! Do you remember back on day 17 we talked about God's grace?  I asked you if you were brave enough to let Him in.  I told you I was brave enough to let him in a little but not too much for if I did I was afraid it would turn my whole world upside down.  This is exactly what I was talking about.  I am still afraid to "Let go and Let God".  How about you? 

My prayer today; Lord, thank you for the Sacraments and all the graces you rain down on us.  Please don't give up on me but continue your patient ways and soften my fears so I may put all my trust in You.

Pax

 

Joe